another month is gone

today is the last day of september, 2009.
i am being very unproductive today, due to the sickness.
know i should of take care of myself, know i should of be confident and treate myself better.
however, it is always easier to say than actually put to action.

the time i spent in london goes by faster than i thought.
full moon festival is coming up this weekend, then thanksgiving again...
i would never be able to catch up with time.

time is the only thing fair to everyone, time is all we have.
however i disagree with one thing, time doesn't help to heal.

第一次

人生有很多很多个第一次，随着人岁的增长，这个次数越来越少。
人越大，能接受的新事物反而越少。
以为自己懂了很多，学了很多，有经验了。但原来，人不进步就只会退步。
的确，懂得多并不一定会块乐。

容易满足现状的人，可能真的会比较快乐。但也较容易原地踏步。
如果人不进步，那社会也不会进步。

人無論在那个年龄阶段都應该勇于接受新事物的。
同人说这是我第一次做xxx其實并不失禮。

back up plans

back up plans may or may not be a good thing.

conservative people tend to have back up plans, just like my mother.
she is always careful, think about the consequences after an action.
of course, that is what i have been taught.
it can be a good thing, because having back up plans will save you from a ridiculously sad situation.
however, it can also keep you from the real success.

aggressive people may not have back up plans. 
it is more likely they would set a goal and takes everything to reach it.
of course, when they achieve it, everything is worth it. yet.. what if they don't?
nonetheless, just because they don't have back up plans, they have nothing to lose.
they try harder and have high chance to succeed.

if it is you, what would you pick?

character changes destiny?

they always say...

character changes destiny.

however, is that really true?

i am not religious.
yet, i think somehow destiny is existed.
i understand you are the one who controls your own life.
yet, there is too much stuff out of control. maybe because my ability is too limited.
i believe the butterfly effect is existing. every little detail counts.
yet, no matter how much you try, there is some end you may not change/control.

i try my best to live everyday meaningfully, without any regret.
does it really work?

Does it matter?

people like to comment on others.
when people are commenting on others, they usually don't think about the result of commenting.
words can cause a major effect on other.
words can be the most hurtful weapon.
words can easily solve a problem and cause a problem at the same time.

words has major influence because people care about what other say.
however, sometimes how others think doesn't really matter.
most of the time, it is better if you learn to don't care.
most of the time, it is better if you learn to be yourself.

every individual has his own value.
someone would be able to tell eventually.

information sessions

It is almost been a week since I came back to the town of London.
London did not change much, boring as usual.
Seeing all the frosh come in, I feel old; hearing them talking, i feel even older.
I was looking lost, talking stupid, thinking immaturely, just like what they are doing now.
No, I am not what I have done. At the specific moment, I made the best decision as I could. There is no point to regret. Thinking back does not help with anything.
Think about it in another way, seeing those frosh, feeling old means.. i learned and grew over these years in university. I did not waste my time and money here.

back to the topic.. information sessions.

i have been to a lot of information sessions in this past week, almost everyday.
These information sessions are hosted by various companies and for the purpose of campus recruitment and networking.
All levels of staff would come to the info session and answer the questions of students.
It is important for student to talk to them, get them remember you and follow. It is the first impression you give to them, influential to your future application.

I never like to talk to strangers.
Now.. I am learning to ace this skill.

9.11

eight years...
yes, the day that twin towel ended its mission, i started my life in Canada.

eight years ago, there is a lot that i did not understand.
the repetitive scene on TV did not appeal to me as much.
now seeing it again, realize how horrible it was.

eight years is a long time. but it went past too fast.
it seems like i have done nothing but time has already went by.
time is fair to everyone and that is all we have.

eight years is long enough to change a lot.
even a year is enough.
whatever is over is over, need to move on.

all about steve

today is the first day of school.
last entertainment is all about steve.

this is another comedy movie.
it is funny and relaxing overall.
yes, i like comedy movies. sometimes, watching a movie is about relaxing, don't want to think much anymore. eventually, you may get something out of it anyways.

as the main character said.. no need to change yourself for anyone. you just have to find someone that matches.
another thing is media. media likes to exaggerate events. i am not saying it has to be a bad thing. however, it is not easy to understand in the movie that why the main actress suddenly became a hero.

really need to mention about the actors. i think sarah did a really good job to establish the characteristic of fun, smart and enthusiasm. the asian actor is playing an more important role in this movie, if you remember him from the hangovers. i am happy to see asians are improving in their parts.

september memo

when we mention September... what do you think of?

- students back to school
- beginning of fall
- another long weekend (for Canadians)
- full moon festival/moon cake is coming
- ...etc.

to me this year...
going into the final year of undergraduate.
of course i think of back to school, and one more thing this time... campus recruitment.
honestly, it is not happy to back to that small town. yet, it is better to concentrate at school there.
as everyone says, it's the last year. don't do/not do anything that i would regret.