2013 Update

I realize this blog records a lot of my memories. In recent years, the blog is not updated as often as before. This is due to difference reasons, laziness, time constraints, other use of social media..etc. I think I slow this blog down ever since I go weibo. I have to admit that weibo is quick and easy. It is more convenient that sit down and type blog. 

There is a lot of changes and moves I made in 2013. 

In 2013....

• Resigned from a job that I was comfortable with near home. 
• Started a new job with the company that I always want to work with, far away from home.
• Qualified as an accountant 
• Move to a place that is completely strange to me.
• First time live by myself.

In other people's eyes, I am brave and willing to seek for what I want. In parents' eyes, it is finally the time that their little girl is to be independent, still very worrying. In my own eyes, I better make this worth it. 

It seems like this is the life I want since I was a kid. Travelling around, meeting different people, working with big brand name companies...etc. At the end of the day, I realize I am not as strong as I thought. 

Everyone thinks others ave a happy and easy life, but they don't see the hard time and tears others have. There is no one single job that is easy in the world. If you want something better, you have to work harder and willing to take the risk. 

2012 ~ 2013

Time is ticking. It is 2013 already.

I just realized I have not updated the blog for a few months. Clearly, I have been busy... Well there are few items to summarize for the end of 2012 and the beginning of 2013. The major changes would be obtaining a new position in a new company and trip to Europe. 

2012 is not really a quite year for me. A few major changes and decisions were made. Thankfully, correct decisions were made and I am pretty satisfy with my life now. I realize sometimes you just have to make your move and do what you truly believe. Maybe people do not understand or do not support at the time, but you should pursue what you truely want. 

Life goes on, time doesn't wait for you. We just have to make some brave move. It is better to make a mistake than regret not doing it after.

With regards to my Europe trip, it was great. It is a family trip with family reunion as well. I am glad to take this opportunity since this may not happen again in my life time. I really appreciate the time that we can spend together.

There is a lot to see and experience in Europe. Two weeks is a very short period of time. UK and France are definitely worthwhile to revisit. Actually there is a lot of comment on the trip, I should update it later on.

PS. Happy New Year! Wish everyone all the best for 2013 and the snake year!  

Multi-tasking

I always think multi-tasking is a good soft skill, which is transferable in different positions. I was trained to be able to multi-task in all my previous positions. It is good if you can concentrate on certain task one at the time. Yet, it is also necessary to keep yourself observant your surroundings and take care of the all the tasks. In one position, it is not possible to have one task at one time. It is necessary to develop the skill set to manage multiple tasks at the same time.

Around the same time last year, I was 100% concentrated on doing my UFE. It was pretty hard cord back then, even I look at it now. I have never study like that before in my life. Also, I don't think there will be another chance for me to study like that in the future. 

As you grow up, there is a lot more going on your life and a lot more you need to consider. Yes, childhood was simple and happy. Parents will take care of everything for you, everything inside and outside of the house. Now, you have to be responsible for yourself. No one in the real world will forgive you like your parents did. 

You don't really get to focus on one thing at a time anymore. Studying is not everything anymore. Meanwhile, you have to consider family, relationship, career, finance...etc. They are all parts of your life. They are equally important. You cannot really live without any of them. Multi-tasking skill is also important in terms how you handle your life as well.

Of course, not only multi-tasking, prioritize, time management... they are all important. 

Unfortunately, we are not kids anymore. "those years" will be in our memories...

Step back

It is been a while since my last post. A lot of stuff happened and changed. Some decisions were made. I don't know if those decisions were correct, but time will be able to tell.

Read a quote recently, you are living in a life resulted by decisions you made three years ago. Therefore, whatever decision you made right now should have impact on your life three years after. I don't know if it is really 3 years, but I am sure every decision you made would have change your life.

A lot of time, people are trying too hard to move forward and try to score. They tend to forget to make stop, step back and look at the entire pictures. When you don't really see ending of the way you to heading to, maybe it is a good time to step back and take a new road. Maybe the new road would take you to the destination faster.

Maybe I should not desire something I cannot control. But I would regret if I don't desire and try for something I want. I rather try and fail than regret after.

A nice day off

June is actually a busy month due to all the December year ends. I get a day off due to the doctor's appointment. It is a very nice day out today and it feels like I am back to school.

No make up, sweat pants, T-shirts, backpacks... Seriously, it looks like I am a Year 1 all over again. While I was talking on UT campus, I was telling myself the exact same thing I was walking in the western campus few years ago. I like this feeling, it reminds me who I really am. I have the admit, the reality and the workforce twist my view of life made me forgot who I want to be initially.

Maybe the original simple and happy life is all I wanted from the very beginning. All the educations, ambitions and others are just there to prove I can live better, to prove I can do it. Yet, better living does not equal to happier living.

Sometimes, you need someone/something to clear your mind and give you a ring of your real objective of life.

感謝

真的不太敢相信這是真的。原來老天爺真的有眷顧我，之前的努力都是值得的。衷心感謝所有幫過我的人！特別是一直幫我的師父，一起溫書的同伴，聽我傾訴的朋友，當然還有最最重要一直在我身邊無限量支持的父母。真的謝謝你們！

知道這才是開端，以後的努力才是更重要的。這條路現在才算是真正開始走。在以後的路上，我會記住之前的苦和今天的甜而更努力。

再一次感謝！

First snow

We got the first snow of the year today. Did not have a chance to take a picture because they mostly melted during the afternoon.

Winter.. here it comes.

Paranormal activity 3

Today is Halloween. I don't know if everyone celebrate/like this holiday, but I still wish everyone happy halloween. =) I personally don't celebrate this holiday often. I went to Trick or treat once/twice when I was a kid. Other than that, I did not really dress up in costume again.

This year we went to this Halloween party in Sheraton hotel in downtown Toronto. It was pretty fun, saw quite a few of interesting costume there. You guys may check out the pictures in the following link.

https://picasaweb.google.com/michelle.z.x/2011Halloween?authuser=0&authkey=Gv1sRgCO2huI2EtMjxcQ&feat=directlink

I am here to talk about the movie, Paranormal activity 3. I never really like/dislike horror movies, because I was not really scared. My friend commented, I tend to analyze movies with logic, therefore I don't really get the movie and do not feel scared.

I watched this movie in the theater. It is actually pretty funny to see other people's reaction to a horror movie. I agree with the movie leaves a lot of room for imagination. It may be a good point for some people.

I personally do not like the movie. Maybe it is because i never really understand it. >_< If it is just for an experience, i guess it is worth a try to watch it in a dark room.

october update

十月份過来發生了不少事。

坦白说，不用温書的日子很轻松，但總覚得在浪费光阴。趁還没老，應该多读書，多吸收。經過感恩節假期的思考，也大概找到了以後要走的路。有目标是重要的，即使不會一路顺风的走到最後，但目标會給你走下去的勇气。

本来想写一篇来悼念一下Steve Jobs 的，现在也写进来好了。

听到消息時，覚得可惜了。雖然结果一早就想到了，但曾经仍能够拖一下。他的确為21世纪的科技發展贡献了许多。到此，也没有人再提他當初的 'dictatorship' 了吧。當然，今日几乎人手一部smart phone 不全是他的功劳，但他的确有很大的影响。才五十多歲，是可惜了。

這次感恩節假期也没去哪，爸妈也是刚回来，不想太累了。
短途去了北面的一個小镇，Muskoka，一個挺漂亮，挺安静的地方。在那里退休怕是不方便吧，甚麽都没有。但有空去赏赏枫倒是不错的。跟父母相聚的每一次机會都應该珍惜，年長了，机會就更少了。要去哪里闯得趁年轻，父母老了還得回他们身边照顾。

how to be mature

since i m heading back to work tomorrow, i really should improve my maturity. once again, i want to thank my friend for the advise today. however, i still did a research on how to be mature.

• Tone down your fashions
• Use manners. Try to be courteous without being stuffy or inflexible
• Have a genuine good attitude and a goodwill towards others
• Have confidence in yourself and speak from your heart. If you think that you have a good idea, share it. But think before you act. 
• Think before you speak
• "Be slow to anger"
• Learn to apologize sincerely for your mistakes, inappropriate words and actions towards others.
• Listen, slightly nod, and say little things like, "Oh" or "yes," to let them know you are listening
• Remember, when you speak, use facial expressions and be funny as usual, but be more serious in conversation.
• Be helpful
• Talk about mature things to people
• Keep in mind, around kids, squat down to their size when you talk to them
• Try to use proper grammar and spelling whenever you write, including instant messaging and online games.
• Keep an open mind 
• Learn to control your temper.
• Don't swear,
• Accept compliments gracefully
• Take criticism gracefully, too
• Be mature and polite online, too.
• Observe your friends
• Write out your goals and plan how you will achieve them

i believe this list is pretty useful. hopefully, i see the improvement within a short period time.

it is time

Technically, i did not have a break after the UFE. I am not complaining, most of people do not have a break after UFE. We either go back to work or school. For me, it is staff training. Today is the last day, I will go back to the boring work routine starting next Monday.

Of course, I don't know if I will pass. However, I think it is the time that I should start to do something I want to do. There are too many things I wanted to do for the past year but did not have time/chance.  Hopefully, it is not too late to start now.

Here is the list of goals. Let's see how much I would get done after a month.

• Learn Japanese
• Weekly yoga/workout
• Work part time in startbucks
• Read inspiration books
• Complete GMAT/GRE
• Travel to a place I have never been before

 I will be honest. It feels good that no more stressful studying. However, not studying makes me feel not learning and improving. I still think I should absorb more knowledge and different kinds experience whenever I have an opportunity.

i really hope it is done

When everyone is jumping around and so excited that it is done, I had a hard time to believe that it is actually over. I do not feel happy at all, neither relieved. >3<

I hope it is actually over. It is out of my hand now.

Praying...

Captain America

Today is the release day of Captain America. Honestly, I didn't really know what is this movie about when I picked it.  I saw the trailer and thought it was fine. I wanted to pick something that comes out today because today is special.

Movie first...
When I told people I am going to watch this movie, everyone is shocked. >< I guess it is not a favor super hero for everyone and it seems childish. However, I don't it is a bad movie after all. I never really know the original story of Captain America, the plot of the movie is not bad. Yet, the ending is pretty awkward and do not really fit into the whole story.

I watched the movie in 3D. I don't think it is worth it. The 3D parts have not done well. I did not really see the 3D is necessary. Other than the 3Ds, the overall action scenes are fine. Some of the explosion and fighting scenes are not realistic enough.

There is nothing special about the acting part because they are mostly action scenes.

overall, i rate this movie 5/10.

PS. 要感谢神的眷顾，也要感谢所有帮了我的贵人，更要感谢給我無限支持的家人和朋友。我會為下一城更努力。

can't go back

it is too late to go backward. it is too late to start all over again. whatever is done is done, all i can do now is to look forward.  I should be responsible for the way i chose, even if I fell, I still have to get up and finish the road.

hope for the best...
expected and prepared for the worst...

praying...

Night it up!

Night it up! 是大多倫多地区一年一次由華人举办的夜市。

我也有几年没有去了。第一次去還是在很多年前，我還在讀高中的時候。當時的夜市由York U 的學生办的，坦白说真的不怎麽样。所以去了一次也不想再去了。相隔這麽多年，夜市真的進步了许多。先不说场地大了，是整個organization 進步了。從几方面来看，食物摊档整齐了，种类多了，秩序也好了。雖然還是很多人，到了晚上地上的垃圾也很多，但這個是很难避免的。球赛和表演的队伍也是受邀请的。歌唱得不怎麽样，但舞跳得還過得去。業余的也不要要求太高。年轻人有机會玩一下都是好的。

有一样很不满意的，在夜市是完全受不到电话或短信的。有可能改进一下吗？

PS. It is a good night after all. =D

praying...

it is now over...
all i can do is pray and hope for the best...

shoulder pain

This is not the first time i got shoulder pain. I am sure many people get is frequently as well. In the beginning, I should it would fade away if I get enough sleep, apparently not. After a while, I figured some ways to relief the shoulder pain.

• work out - work on your back muscles
• hot bath - make sure the hot water go over your shoulder
• massage - temporary
• pain relief pad (cold/hot) - it doesn't have to be the brand name ones. (it works the best for me, maybe my situation is very serious.)

Actually the best solution is not to stress out. ^0^

nervous

this is a serious warning...
starting to get worried and nervous >3<

I finally realize there is no time left.. really have to hard cord studying...

Good luck everyone.

thanks

Today is the second day. it is very tiring....>3< I pray for not getting sick within the next 22days...

Thanks all of you for remembering. I get all your wishes and hope you are all doing well too. ^-^

June

Today is the first day of class. I really hope everything will go well. I woke up extremely early and typing blog right now, which I have no idea why. >3< I actually need my sleep. I realize I still get up way earlier than I should or not able to fall asleep when something comes up. That means I am still not mature??

June 4th is just over...
I hope the CFA candidates did well. Since there is a belt, I hope my friends pass. ^o^
Once again, pray for the 6.4 event.

This month is supposed to be hardcore because I slack quite a bit in May. Hopefully, the school will turn out ok at the end, to all of candidates.